Monday, August 30, 2010

i took up the courage for once, to start to talk face to face. it did solve the problem. I took the initiative this time, because, i really don't want us to quarrel,again and again.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

why?

It seemed like a small matter, yet, it blew up once again. Earlier than i had expected. My fault? Your fault? and you will say: it's nobody's fault. Had you tell me earlier what you had to do on the 28th..nothing would have happened. My sixth sense about you wasnt wrongfrom all this while i knew you. Whenever you had something in mind, you would gave excuses to reject an outing with me with reasons because of me, like I'm sick. When the real reason is that you know you had to help yr dad.All this happened because you refuse to speak up. Jurong bird park was pre agreed at least a week ago, and just because your dad begged you. Alright, you said he will die from exhaustion. Me? I always wanted to let you see my retainer the very moment i had it on, but forget it. I wanted you to witness how serious my flu and cough was, you ignored me, because nothing could be more important than me, unless i die. Adn you will start thinking that I am very unreasonable and not understanding. I am not angry at why you had to help your dad. It's rather more of why can't you lead your life that you can call your own? why must you be lead by others all these while? closing down sale after 30 years? you said there's a reason for these. Who wouldn't be upset by this? but you refused to tell me what is happening in your family. Similar to jock biao's case. This time, i can foresee that its either your dad has some illness and is too weak to carry on, or he has some cashflow problem and had to close down, or because your parents are getting a divorce? or is it purely that he thinks he needs to retire? what is it so embarassing to tell me about? Then why should i carry on being your girlfriend when i felt helpless to even give you the support you need? and you will start saying that i wasn't there when you needed someone most. What shocked me the most was that you can even sacrifies your studies to help your dad. Were you thinking properly enough? or was your dad not understanding at all? you even had time to go to facebook on 29th after your call to me. You arent devastated by all this at all, are you? We will never solve our problem like this, never. Since you are so busy, you will never have a face to face talk with me at all. I hate you for always giving excuses, telling me last minute changes when it you can still inform me before hand, and giving me empty promises.You have obligations for everyone. You can go on like this, i gurantee you will definitely fail psychologically. Live life of your own, please.