negative news..

recently, there have been a number of negative news, which kind of affected my mood too. The most talk-about one, will be the recent killing of the first singaporean from the terrorist attack in mumbai. How vulnerable can life be? I kept on reading news of her, and the more i read, the more i will put myself in her family shoes. I kept thinking how i will feel, as her husband, her family. I don't know how i will move on with my life if i were her husband/family. Married for a year with plans to have children, and all hopes just vanished like that. Thats life.

And yet, on the other side, people can give up their marriage so easily, i.e. quan yifeng and her husband who divorced after 10 years of marriage.

Perhaps people really cant seem to treasure their loved ones til they disappear from this world. 那是人类丑陋的一面！

plus, kor kor cant seem to find out whats the problem in their relationship. Thus, there came about this conversation from my aunts and cousin about..relationships.

the airport

the last time that i stepped into the airport before yesterday, was awaiting the arrival of my bro from his exchange in US. That was in MAy.

Half a year later, I'm here waiting for my sis, back from Zhu Hai! I sat there, looking around. I like to look at people, walking about, seeing what they do, their expressions, their attire, i thought i could sit there for the whole day just staring at people.

I saw the happy faces of families when their family members came back from overseas. There was this mother, with two very young girls..standing close to the glass looking for their father. "papa! papa!" SO cute! so heartwarming, if her dad could, he would probably break the glass to come out quickly.

I thought of dada! that he will be back in about a month's time. The feeling was so strong, i kept imagining yesterday was 3 JAn, how i will react when i see him, what will i do. I really cant wait!

cya, airport!

yeah!!

exams are finally over! and i got so many surprises here and there while trying to surprise people at the same time! i can't wait to go to the airport later! haha..fang better bring some gifts for me!

okie..let me enjy for a few days first..before i think of other things! yeah!

i love exams???

I mean, who loves exams? Those guys must be outta their minds! But for a moment, i thought this exam period was a way of escaping from reality..yes..from hexis.

I never like to be a leader, all along. Ironically, i have been taking up minor or major leadership position..from being the leader of a group in pri sch to being the overall in charge of NPCC, to the producer in HEXIS. People always thought i have the capability. I would rather be the follower, for some reasons. If everybody wants to be the leader, i cant imagine how disastrous it would be, really.

Hai..the exam period gave me reasons to sleep more, to not do and think about hexis stuff, but now, exam is ending, i still have to face it. Let this be one experience ba..wish me gd luck man!

I seriously hate people who think they are very clever, damn u cockroach!

so familiar..

If all along, you wanted to buy a condominium as your home, but because the ideal conditions were not there, like, not enough money, the location is not good,etc..what will you do? Most people would then settle for a second best, perhaps a five room flat at a very convenient location.

After living in the five room flat for so long, you are bound to be attracted to it and not leave it. But if you ever found back the condominium that you always wanted, conditions are all there, will you shift out of your already cosy five room flat?

ive not been thinking about this for quite some time...

i wanted to write about how i felt today..after the organic chem test..it was a big disappointment, despite all the efforts that i put in, but somehow, this feeling was gone, because, i found myself looking at another blog again................

try as i might, i didn't want to touch it, ididnt want to read it, but my mouse just clicked there. Didn't you always wished that you could have access to that? Now you can. I swore not to touch the other blog ever again, ever since that day, and i did not. Now this blog, ive yet to explore. I will, perhaps after exams.

Just felt abit uneasy, because, i felt inferior, as compared to........hmmx..

thinking again..

for this exam period, i somehow chose to 封闭自己. My weakest point is that, i always care about what others will think. But i am myself. Its natural that since elaine and i are no longer roomies, we tend to see each other less although we are just next door. I would even reject her dinner offers because i want to save on the eating time and study, if not, my study plan will be wasted. But i will think of how yongxiang and the rest will think, will they think that im a wet blanket and all? Im afraid of all that.

But i don't agree on the things they do. Its the exam period now, but elaine seems to be not on track. I want to tell her, yet, i don't think that is appropriate. Or perhaps shes even more on track then me! well..

it is also because of my weak point, that i will never eat alone in a public place, i fear of what others will think. Also, although cockroach always wants to eat lunch/dinner with me, i will reject because, it is not so nice. I do study with him when there is a need, he still talks to me about all sorts of problems in life, and we are still v. good friends. But i really don't want him to be so persistent, because nothing is going to change a fact. the fact is, he will never get what he wants, and im afraid of how dada will feel. I don't like to be insecure myself, naturally i don;t like to give others an insecure feeling. Perhaps, it is only when dada is back will he understand where he stand..oh well...

random words..

exams are real soon! Its just next week!..according to yan yan's battle plan, im on track, but may be out of track anytime because of biz law!..i hate biz law. Mummy told me yesterday that shen qi bao he grew again! im so excited! but im not going home anytime soon, so she will be bringing me the letter and liangcha tomorrow!

I will be going on a trip to genting and KL this december with teronne and elaine and yong xiang and peiyi and kai jie! quite a random combination, wheres my RF?? hai, but something is just missing, though i really wish that dada can cancel off his trip to new york and join us, but well, i can't be so selfish! If only i have the money, i will fly over and fly him!