i don't really have alot of friends whom i am close to. Not to say friends who come in pairs. Perhaps, i will always put myself in other people's shoes, thats why, when i know that teronne and yong xiang had broken up, i was very distraught, upset.
Nobody ever wants to see a couple break up, is there a need? i thought. Yet these two were the ones who pulled us through our hexis difficult times, taught us numerous things about being street smart, planned the genting trip, went to teoheng most of the times, attended my birthday party, our camp leader, senior, saying that they wanted to form a new circle of friends with us..
I felt for ter so much, although i can't say that i know anything, but there is the possibility that yx dumped her for another girl. That is so like him. I hate these kind of guys seriously, it totally changed my perception of him. I was close to crying when i spoke to ter yesterday, when i should be the one calming her and listening to her. It must be tough for her, being the only child at home, parents working...but as she said, all was not worth it..lets hope sherecovers soon..
no more outings together, no more teo heng, its alright, at least i know my dada aint any other guys in the street...=>
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Thursday, September 3, 2009
4 september..the day i hate the most
Last year this time, i was feeling so terrible because you had to go to canada. its been a year since then. For the past year, we didnt even quarreled once, and i began to worry, was it normal? i thought there ought to be some quarrels so that we can improve our relationships. Then when you came back, we had the 1st one over the mahjong. After that i thought it was perfectly fine, we had one quarrel! subsequently, i can't remember how many quarrels we had..till 23 aug..that was the biggest one. i thouht, okie, there sld be the end of our quarrels, i will start to understand him more. but there are still things i take a whole lot of my time to understand why..
but when you love that person, its only the least thing that you can do, understand,understand and understand. i havent done my part really well, i must say, you did all you could..
but bcoz of the canada trip, i really feared you leaving me. until now, i still feel this sense of insecurity, as you like to do things without informing me.
hp806 dr.jansen said, he used to love to go diving, mountain biking and all, but he stopped when he had his first chhild, he thought of that what will happen to his wife, children if something should happen to him, i thought, that was so very responsible of him.
i wonder if im alright, but when im doing something, i will be so careful, just in case i die, and the people who loved me will be theone suffering the most. I feared alot when i cross the road, i feared when i was in the plane, wondering if we will be landing safely, becoz when most accidents haven, they didnt thought it would be them, i wonder if i walk halfway, will a flower pot just drop down and hit me. im paranoid.
okie, i should have understand that you wanted something for your resume, i should understand and support you. This time, its is really my fault. for the first time i would say. but i just hope that you will always do one thing, keep to your promises.
i think it will be taxing for us to go taiwan this dec. you are going to australia. i don't want to be unreasonable. we will cancel this trip. bcoz if i go, i won't be happy also. people will come back from a trip together and enjoy post trip, but you are going away to an even better place right after taiwan, will you remember we went to taiwan? definitely less..i cant say that im not disappointed, bcoz we delayed once, this will be twice, next 3 mths u have IO. and i just want to let you know that the call yr mimi made to me at natas made me felt uncomfortable, bcoz yr sis at the side was trying to shut her up, afraid that i will know you all are going overseas. da, don't worry, i very zidong, i won't want to go with you all overseas.
there is a very impt promiseyou made to me last yr for this yr, lets see if u really remembered=>
thats love, relationships, abit taxing, but uget alot better moments of coz.
as always, this post is delicated to you
but when you love that person, its only the least thing that you can do, understand,understand and understand. i havent done my part really well, i must say, you did all you could..
but bcoz of the canada trip, i really feared you leaving me. until now, i still feel this sense of insecurity, as you like to do things without informing me.
hp806 dr.jansen said, he used to love to go diving, mountain biking and all, but he stopped when he had his first chhild, he thought of that what will happen to his wife, children if something should happen to him, i thought, that was so very responsible of him.
i wonder if im alright, but when im doing something, i will be so careful, just in case i die, and the people who loved me will be theone suffering the most. I feared alot when i cross the road, i feared when i was in the plane, wondering if we will be landing safely, becoz when most accidents haven, they didnt thought it would be them, i wonder if i walk halfway, will a flower pot just drop down and hit me. im paranoid.
okie, i should have understand that you wanted something for your resume, i should understand and support you. This time, its is really my fault. for the first time i would say. but i just hope that you will always do one thing, keep to your promises.
i think it will be taxing for us to go taiwan this dec. you are going to australia. i don't want to be unreasonable. we will cancel this trip. bcoz if i go, i won't be happy also. people will come back from a trip together and enjoy post trip, but you are going away to an even better place right after taiwan, will you remember we went to taiwan? definitely less..i cant say that im not disappointed, bcoz we delayed once, this will be twice, next 3 mths u have IO. and i just want to let you know that the call yr mimi made to me at natas made me felt uncomfortable, bcoz yr sis at the side was trying to shut her up, afraid that i will know you all are going overseas. da, don't worry, i very zidong, i won't want to go with you all overseas.
there is a very impt promiseyou made to me last yr for this yr, lets see if u really remembered=>
thats love, relationships, abit taxing, but uget alot better moments of coz.
as always, this post is delicated to you
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