For a week or so, I'm asking myself, how am i feeling right now? Am i still full of anger towards him, full of disappointment towards him? or am i feeling very excited that he is coming back in two days time. I remember how i felt when 3rd jan 2009 was reaching. I was so looking forward towards it, how i can hug him tightly, tell him alot alot of things. I remember how tightly i held him while on the way his home, in his car.
25 july 2010 in 2 days time, while looking forward, yet, my hard feelings towards him is not fully off. It can't be settled just like that, because we really need to talk. But i realised that whenever a major conflict happen, we gave ourselves time to cool down, but there was always never a wrap up. Even if there was, i was always the one to initiate it, just like the one major quarrel we had before our last paper on 4 may.
what i had felt on my birthday was no small matter, i will explain to him why when he comes back. About the incident on his birthday, about hui ling's comment and his comment on fb, i just want to know what happened over at his side. I am willing to sit down and talk things through. But not now, i didnt want to tell him about my driving test, its on tuesday, for your info. If u still don't know by tuesday, that proves how often u read my blog, or how u don't even read. Give me a miracle. please.
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