Fruitful one week/ thoughts

Last week was the start of the week. It was still pretty honeymoon period bcoz there wasnt any labs, tutorials. And for the first time, i went to look see how the army camp is like. Ironically, it wasnt my kor's one. I've never even been to his! It was dada's bro camp. I even got to meet his relatives, at the temple. All these little things do make an impact on me. It gave me importance, hence, i never fail to gather everyone for my relatives' gathering, siblings birthday etc etc, because dada is part of us. I sometimes hestitate to stay over at his house, for fear how his parents will think, afterall, im a girl and should not always be staying over, yet come to think of it, perhaps nobody thought so and its just me who thought so much...

Was really enjoying every moment of the days last week. Jogging, turtle soup...I always like to think back about all the good things.

Feel kind of, how should i go about this semester? With 14 AUs, its considered very slack. Yet, each module requires more effort than before. Even lab has exams. With hexis to add on til March, cockroach asked me what is my aim for this sem? My reply was, to maintain or go higher. Sometimes, i don;t know how i should go along adjusting my circle of friends. I still have the impression that da don;t like me to have any communication w cockroach. But yet i don;t want da to have other thinking. I really don;t like to see disappointed, sad, sick, angry expressions on my loved ones. This lunch was also after much thought before i agreed. And to tell da that i had lunch w him, is because i respect da.

Hai, a lunch totally spoiled my mood, and i didnt even eat. Perhaps i think too much what dada will think. I think because i tend to put others in my shoes and therefore think how will i think/feel and apply those thinking on other people, which isnt the case. Even for this post, it took me so long to gather my thoughts.......


okie, i should eat now, felt better after writing down! =>