lab exams?

Throughout my educational period, I have never had laboratory theory exams! I mean, isn't it clearly written as lab and should be done practically? We have had SPAs exam during our junior college days, practical exam during our secondary and primary school days.
Today's paper was such a killer paper. I don't know how the rest felt, but for the first time after last semester''s organic paper, i felt so helpless during the paper itself.

Its not fair to test our graph plotting skill when we are now into the high-tech era. It took me so long to decide the parameter for the axis and the first few questions totally dampened my mood. All the As for my lab reports are fake, they have already planned such a funny paper in ahead. Well, as I said, its only a paper, it could not have been worse for other people at some corner..like madelyn's friend.

Her friend's mum just passed away. Although it has nothing to do with me, but this kind of thing will happen to me in future. I would put myself in their shoes and imagine how worse i will have felt. I would propably not turn up for exams and give up. There were 2 cases in JC1 and JC2 respectively. My friend, in my clique. Her father died during the period near our promotional exams, we went to her father's wake. She seemed alright then, but everybody knows that this is such a hard thing to accept. The other one happened within a year during our Alevels. I bet she must be very strong then, for she scored 4 As and A1 for GP for Alevels. She was beside me that day, when results were released. Immediately, she cried upon knowing her results, in her heart, she knew that her dad was always supporting her and watching over her. And for that, I felt so ashamed of my results.

Im afraid of physics of sports more than thermodynamics. MCQs are killers. But.。顺其自然 吧！
Oh yah, I finally saw dada with his retainer, my wish fulfilled!!! so cute!

still in progress..

I thought I would listen to my HW102a teacher Alvin and write an entry everyday, even though it may be as short as just a paragraph. But here I am, days after my last entry!

Exams are still in progress and one paper had since passed. It was not what I had expected. I expected it to be reasonably easy. I thought questions from the notes will come out again, but it was not the case. Multiple choices questions were tricky, but well, I don't think it will be disastrous, all I want is a B+ and above. But of course, paper like green chemistry, I really hope an A- will popped out!

I'm not that ambitious, I mean, Im aiming in a reachable way. I don't aim for grades like A+ which I'm never capable of. But of course, if I were to get it, who will not want it? I have been hanging out with CBE people lately, because I go to dada's school everyday to study. Clever people really study in a different way. They practice and discuss a lot among themselves. But again, I think it is something that only above average people can do it. For me, i can't, because i can't even get the real concept right, let alone contribute to the group and discuss among friends. Dada said that Jock Biao's way of studying is wrong, while i agreed (because i'm also like that), i also understand why he studys that way. We, perhaps the more average or less than average people, do not grasp the concept as fast, therefore we tend to feel insecure if we don;t finish summarising and reading the notes before practicing. Nevertheless, I'm also trying to change my style, I do practice more now. But seriously, I'm pretty easily satisfied with life, with grades. B+ will make me smile! haha

Studies are not everything in life, there are still so many things to overlap the injury you got in exams. Everyone is special in a way. Ha, I overheard 3 guys conversation yesterday. I really could not stand the way they prepare for exams; totally "heck care". I would never have the courage to not study for any exam. I would never have the courage to say: "i haven study leh" just one day before the exam, even if its pass/fail! CBE computer lab is not bad, so re nao, unlike my school's ones. But because I'm going there everyday, I haven seen them for ages. I haven watched television for so long! I missed dabaoing food into the tv room. I missed the time when i was in year 1, always eating early lunch with Elaine because every one or a few days, one of us would have afternoon paper. We would then watch those long long ago chinese serials! hao hao kan! Now is good too! See dada everyday!

I swear Im going to lose weight when exams end. I can't eat the way I'm eating now. Although i don;t eat rubbish now, but that's not an eating pattern that I can adopt to lose weight. If you just compare me and dada. We eat almost the same 3 meals a day, but he is taller and bigger! How can we consume the same number of calories a day? When our energy requirements are different! Haha, got to do something about my weight. Its not just about exercise. I really need less rice! 44 kg by my birthday? 40 by TW trip? hehe...39 by.....hmmx..the big big day=>

all soaked in school

Today was the official last lesson of the semester before exam really starts. In fact, mine first paper will begin next tuesday! Seriously, i really hated Hw module, i mean, I still hate it now, for I'm one who cannot write well. But I found that I have found two really good friends to talk to. I thought i blended in with both of them so well. Being able to talk about anything under the sun. They even tell me their problems, and I felt so good that they looked upon me to give them advise. Actually I don't have many friends in my course, friends that I will go to lesson together and hang out with. I supposely have 2, but it became 1. That only friend, she's just a lecture friend, a friend whom i will never talk about my personal life, a friend whom I will never ask her for help, a friend whom i will never study with. But yet without her, I would be a loner in CBC. Thats so contradicting

I have been soaking in either Lee Wee Nam Library or CBE to study. If not for dada, I would not have this discipline to wake up early to study. Nevertheless, I am still getting used to this habit, for it has always been a norm for me to study til 2am and wake up at 10 plus. I feel that 8 hours is still not enough for me, haha.

For the first time that day, I ran two rounds around the school! I am so proud of myself. perhaps it it at most 10km only, but thats a great achievement, on the account that I have not been running much until recently.

Dada and I talked so much yesterday I thought i really have nothing to hide from him anymore. I was so straightforward i thought i will say the wrong things. But I'm glad that things always turn out well. Perhaps I should change my mindset to the more positive side, but as it is, girls are hard to understand and accomodate, it is the constant insecurity that we(us) feel. And that was what i told Maypo today. Chin and Po agreed.

I hope she is not thinking too much again. Nobody wants a couple to break up right? Things are hard to come by, lets cherish everyone around us!

bored to death

If its me, i will inform my whereabouts, so that people won't have to assume where you are,
if its me, i will be so open about myself, that there will be no secrets within me,
If its me, If its me.

Sometimes, its kinda hard, to open up the cockle shell, for they just refuse to open, and at the end of the day, you will just give up and not care and not eat the cockle. But, thats different, because you can eat the rest of the cockle shells!

Thats not the case........well....in any case..perhaps i should just shut up

Was so super sian in hall, the whole day, i was just studying, and the whole day, i was thinking should i eat or not.

I want people to eat with me, if not i won;t bother to eat myself, and i will end up eating rubbish. Luckily, theres them to eat with me.

And i had an adventure with my cheque. It was rainingly heavily this afternoon and zhiling called me down to the concourse to pass me my cheque. It was just a thiny whiny little cheque. With not even an envelope to protect it. I struggled my way up, making sure i don't slipped and fall. Along the way, i just imagined the worst, what if i really fell and the cheque flew off to the ground and it got wet and when i picked up it tore and...omg..then thats the end for me. I protected it against the rain that came in, only to find myself more wet.phew. Finally im up there, poor cheque, poor me.

back to study..and my stitch still hurts, feel like going home again...SIAN..whenever i feel bored, i will call mummy, for i don;t have to bother if shes free or not, she will always be free for me.

argh!!!! just when i was in a rather good mood to write something, something about the hexis venuw invoice has to irritate me. Now, i don't even know what to do with the outstanding 1733.40 which must be paid within 7 days. Our funds have enough to pay and thats a fact, but she manipulated until we don't have money to pay, and thats a lie!

Just say that you don;t want to help us and thats it. In any case, its not going to come out from any of our pockets. Its just ridiculous.

Was enjoying my last few days..now i don't even have the mood to write. I wanted to describe so much about our sing song session, about our 10 mth anniversary at JJ concert, about how i know da three times more..i just can't go on...

Life is so vulnerable

I came across my friend's blog, which posted a link to another blog. That another blog was set up for a special girl, a small little girl, who has cancer. Im amazed by how much she has gone through, the pain of having to go through chemotherapy when many others her age are still crying for attention.

http://ourfeistyprincess.blogspot.com/

and yet, people just kill themselves as and when they like, why not let those who wants to end their life have cancer? don't harm the innocent. arghh..thats life.

Live the life u want..!

THank You!

Hexis is over, its finally over, well lets not think about goonies night yet. YEAH!! but, i guess, i will miss it. Its afterall, hard work. By so many people, so much time. I struggled through, and i was satisfied with the performance. This is the biggest thing i ever did, i guess i won't be doing any big thing anymore.

My thank you speech was lousy, i didnt prepare much, but i thought, its not about how wonderful my speech can be, because im not there to promote myself, rather, i just really wanted to thank the people i ought to thank, but i missed out important people. I thought i would cry during my speech, for i cried when i wrote my speech. but perhaps, i was just nervous that i forgot everything. I never thought i would be involved in theatre plays consecutively for 2 years. But this kinda lift up my interest in how they worked in theatres plays.Interesting indeed. I like backstage, i still miss my sets and props team, it was more fun.

i loved these few days at lee. I loved watching the performance over and over again. lets hope everything goes well for my tests and exams too.