Luckily I was fast enough to make a reservation! HAHA and we got a free cake and the usual price stated as a result. However, food was not up to my expectation. I think the best buffet was at Genting!
I can't find a job, and this must not delay anymore. Yet I don't want to lower my expectation too much and except a $4 an hour job. Life's so bored. Planning for the birthday should be easy, as compared to HEXIS. But I just don't know how to make it better.
RUn! Yes, i must start to train my stamina for running, and my 44kg aim must be achieved. I hope. I no longer bake as frequently, because that requires money too, to buy ingredients. HAI!
GIVE ME A JOB
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Thursday, April 30, 2009
contradicting post
My eyes are super swollen and red, yes, i cried so hard once again. Its really not me. BUt there's a feeling that things are no longer as they was. Kor overheard our conversation, and he said i talk like Cindy. But its true, guys change after a year in relationship. Not as enthusiastic anymore. Its so ironic, in the past, when we were so good so good, i worried. Worried because everything was so perfect, it should not be. And when we had our first argument when he came back from canada, regarding the yongsiang hse thing, i was kinda happy, happy that theres a conflict. It means we are natural. Then came the 3 cries in a month, but that made me understand him better. True. Then i became not as happy sometimes, on and off. I started to worry, why.
IN tthe past, he comes to my house to stay like nobody's business. And he will make sure its fair in a way that i stay and he stay at respective's houses. But now he actually said its ma fan and if its not ma fan then just stay lorz..The first to reply RF email last year, i believe the last to reply this year, perhaps not at all. He has more interesting friends than rf perhaps, and prefers to write long long comments on them than us.
I hope he will appreciate me more though. Ive done alot, which he cant see. Ask all his guy friends, i believe im already a very understanding girlfriend. Ive never once asked him to buy anything for me, nothing like kai yang's girlfriend. Yes, although i tend to pull a long face over things that he thinks are nothing. But i have mny reason. Normal people will think in my way and will get angry. Tried and tested with mummy. But He really thinks in a so different way, and so perhaps, it aint a problem for him.
I love him, and thats why i get upset over certain things. I really hoope that for the next 3 months, i won't get unhappy or angry again. Mummy says, well its like that. So perhaps its like that?
Today is the first time since i can't remember when that we parted to go home on our own. Normally, he will come my house or i will go his house and we will then part from there etc. I hate this feeling but i have to get used to it. Perhaps we are so used to going to each others house after each meeting/outing.
Have i ever said that he has never sent me back home once using public transport. I never expect though, because its far. But kor kor does that everytime, i wonder how he does that. Im not trying to bitch and complain about small little things. But some things, we should not take it for granted that its like that. Thers more work to be done. And theres actually force applied though there may be no apparent work done but there is work done afterall.
But after all that crying, i still love him that much. Perhaps, the more you love that person, the more you will cry because of him. I will think over before i get angry again.
Once again, im very serious about this relationship, i want to go on forever, its not a play and go kind. Make me happy, im so easily satisfied and perhaps thats the problem.
All the flam makes me can't breathe at all, with the flu. HAI
IN tthe past, he comes to my house to stay like nobody's business. And he will make sure its fair in a way that i stay and he stay at respective's houses. But now he actually said its ma fan and if its not ma fan then just stay lorz..The first to reply RF email last year, i believe the last to reply this year, perhaps not at all. He has more interesting friends than rf perhaps, and prefers to write long long comments on them than us.
I hope he will appreciate me more though. Ive done alot, which he cant see. Ask all his guy friends, i believe im already a very understanding girlfriend. Ive never once asked him to buy anything for me, nothing like kai yang's girlfriend. Yes, although i tend to pull a long face over things that he thinks are nothing. But i have mny reason. Normal people will think in my way and will get angry. Tried and tested with mummy. But He really thinks in a so different way, and so perhaps, it aint a problem for him.
I love him, and thats why i get upset over certain things. I really hoope that for the next 3 months, i won't get unhappy or angry again. Mummy says, well its like that. So perhaps its like that?
Today is the first time since i can't remember when that we parted to go home on our own. Normally, he will come my house or i will go his house and we will then part from there etc. I hate this feeling but i have to get used to it. Perhaps we are so used to going to each others house after each meeting/outing.
Have i ever said that he has never sent me back home once using public transport. I never expect though, because its far. But kor kor does that everytime, i wonder how he does that. Im not trying to bitch and complain about small little things. But some things, we should not take it for granted that its like that. Thers more work to be done. And theres actually force applied though there may be no apparent work done but there is work done afterall.
But after all that crying, i still love him that much. Perhaps, the more you love that person, the more you will cry because of him. I will think over before i get angry again.
Once again, im very serious about this relationship, i want to go on forever, its not a play and go kind. Make me happy, im so easily satisfied and perhaps thats the problem.
All the flam makes me can't breathe at all, with the flu. HAI
Monday, April 27, 2009
pleasant surprise!
What a pleasant surprise! My surprises aint surprises! haha MUACKS!! HAPPY 11 mth!
Sunday, April 26, 2009
GUILTY
Im so guilty of it! I just read kor's post and yeah, I'm one of those who likes to dabao food and eat in the tv room. But this is the only stress free thing that is fun during exams! Haha, his post abit like dada's one. But, I'm not really an environmentalist. That is why, i like to eat at home! no need to dabao. Yet can watch tv. Okie, bathe!
Exams over soon
Tomorrow will be my last paper! As excited as I am, I suddenly thought of so much things. I will miss this whole exam period. Especially the early part where me and dada will study together everywhere, from LWN 5th storey to 4th storey to benches in north spine, to CBE discussion room, to my SPMS tutorial room..The rain! The laughing of the 2 guys! In the end we had to laugh at ourselves! SO FUN! The drawing of pictures. I kept looking at the photos. DADA so cute! The late night runs! and i was so proud i ran 2 rounds!Initially, i thought i would most probably be studying alone at the ulu tutorial room of mine.
I thought of this same period last year, when I was in a very extremely good mood. The blackouts last year.. and I just instinctively messaged my then "mama" and he will come up and look for me! No blackouts this year, how boring! Thats part of hall life, forever so exciting! The NIE study days last year..the anticipation of something, family day 1..so much so much. I missed 883 too. I would stick the earphone in my year and listen throughout the day. It proved effective. But perhaps not this time.
Its gonna be a year. Thats really fast! I still feel as fresh and new as the past! I think I'm abit crazy though, missing da every free moment, like now! DAda must be busy studying his catalyst! I still want to watch the repeat telecast of Hong Xin Da Jiang! haha . Exercise will start soon, not for this few days though. I really want to relax and sleep until Zi Ran Xing! Many things to do this hoilidays though! plan family day real soon! plan my birthday, plan special days..look for jobs..BAKE!
I really missed my baking marathon, come to think of it. I'm gonna go home! oh yes! poor kor, starts paper tomorrow, haha! BATHE!
I thought of this same period last year, when I was in a very extremely good mood. The blackouts last year.. and I just instinctively messaged my then "mama" and he will come up and look for me! No blackouts this year, how boring! Thats part of hall life, forever so exciting! The NIE study days last year..the anticipation of something, family day 1..so much so much. I missed 883 too. I would stick the earphone in my year and listen throughout the day. It proved effective. But perhaps not this time.
Its gonna be a year. Thats really fast! I still feel as fresh and new as the past! I think I'm abit crazy though, missing da every free moment, like now! DAda must be busy studying his catalyst! I still want to watch the repeat telecast of Hong Xin Da Jiang! haha . Exercise will start soon, not for this few days though. I really want to relax and sleep until Zi Ran Xing! Many things to do this hoilidays though! plan family day real soon! plan my birthday, plan special days..look for jobs..BAKE!
I really missed my baking marathon, come to think of it. I'm gonna go home! oh yes! poor kor, starts paper tomorrow, haha! BATHE!
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
thermodynamics
It is an hour more before my thermodynamics paper start. Thermodynamics is not the word, it should be physical chemistry, because there are other components like chemical equilibrium other than thermodynamics. I'm feeling very stressed up now, yet, i don't feel like recapping anything. Its either you know or don;t. For all my worst papers, i would at least get a B- and not a C. Please don't give me my first C, I won't be able to take it. Tomorrow is yet another stupid paper. Why the hell did I take physics of sports, when my physics really sucks since secondary school. I didn't even take A level physics. I sought of regretted not SU-ing. Im competing with a whole lot of engineering people! Its peanuts to them. How? Will this semester be my lowest point in life?
I don;t know why, I suddenly thought about my birthday party in June, and i kinda don't look forward to it. Part of me hates the planning part, there's alot to do than it is, part of me wants to make it the best. Ive never had birthday parties. Perhaps a mini one when i was 13 year-old. That was at home and only neighbours and my close relatives were invited. Everybody wants to look their best on their 21st isnt it. Everything seems so boring now.
HAI...can 214 please be doable........I know its like peanuts to many people, but not me. But the last paper is not a relaxing one. I still remembered we had steamboat prior to my last paper last semester. And i was not anxious at all. Because theres really nothing much to study. I got a B+ How cool right, and papers like organic where i put in all my blood, i got a B-. I don;t want to stop writing, once i sstop, it means 214 paper is starting. Should i walk, or take bus. I will walk, afraid to take shuttle bus on my own. Because of self concsious, just like i hate to eat alone too. OMG OMG!! Ims o stressed stressed! PLease..give me luck! 12.10pm now..SHould get prepared....
I don;t know why, I suddenly thought about my birthday party in June, and i kinda don't look forward to it. Part of me hates the planning part, there's alot to do than it is, part of me wants to make it the best. Ive never had birthday parties. Perhaps a mini one when i was 13 year-old. That was at home and only neighbours and my close relatives were invited. Everybody wants to look their best on their 21st isnt it. Everything seems so boring now.
HAI...can 214 please be doable........I know its like peanuts to many people, but not me. But the last paper is not a relaxing one. I still remembered we had steamboat prior to my last paper last semester. And i was not anxious at all. Because theres really nothing much to study. I got a B+ How cool right, and papers like organic where i put in all my blood, i got a B-. I don;t want to stop writing, once i sstop, it means 214 paper is starting. Should i walk, or take bus. I will walk, afraid to take shuttle bus on my own. Because of self concsious, just like i hate to eat alone too. OMG OMG!! Ims o stressed stressed! PLease..give me luck! 12.10pm now..SHould get prepared....
Friday, April 17, 2009
lab exams?
Throughout my educational period, I have never had laboratory theory exams! I mean, isn't it clearly written as lab and should be done practically? We have had SPAs exam during our junior college days, practical exam during our secondary and primary school days.
Today's paper was such a killer paper. I don't know how the rest felt, but for the first time after last semester''s organic paper, i felt so helpless during the paper itself.
Its not fair to test our graph plotting skill when we are now into the high-tech era. It took me so long to decide the parameter for the axis and the first few questions totally dampened my mood. All the As for my lab reports are fake, they have already planned such a funny paper in ahead. Well, as I said, its only a paper, it could not have been worse for other people at some corner..like madelyn's friend.
Her friend's mum just passed away. Although it has nothing to do with me, but this kind of thing will happen to me in future. I would put myself in their shoes and imagine how worse i will have felt. I would propably not turn up for exams and give up. There were 2 cases in JC1 and JC2 respectively. My friend, in my clique. Her father died during the period near our promotional exams, we went to her father's wake. She seemed alright then, but everybody knows that this is such a hard thing to accept. The other one happened within a year during our Alevels. I bet she must be very strong then, for she scored 4 As and A1 for GP for Alevels. She was beside me that day, when results were released. Immediately, she cried upon knowing her results, in her heart, she knew that her dad was always supporting her and watching over her. And for that, I felt so ashamed of my results.
Im afraid of physics of sports more than thermodynamics. MCQs are killers. But.。顺其自然 吧！
Oh yah, I finally saw dada with his retainer, my wish fulfilled!!! so cute!
Today's paper was such a killer paper. I don't know how the rest felt, but for the first time after last semester''s organic paper, i felt so helpless during the paper itself.
Its not fair to test our graph plotting skill when we are now into the high-tech era. It took me so long to decide the parameter for the axis and the first few questions totally dampened my mood. All the As for my lab reports are fake, they have already planned such a funny paper in ahead. Well, as I said, its only a paper, it could not have been worse for other people at some corner..like madelyn's friend.
Her friend's mum just passed away. Although it has nothing to do with me, but this kind of thing will happen to me in future. I would put myself in their shoes and imagine how worse i will have felt. I would propably not turn up for exams and give up. There were 2 cases in JC1 and JC2 respectively. My friend, in my clique. Her father died during the period near our promotional exams, we went to her father's wake. She seemed alright then, but everybody knows that this is such a hard thing to accept. The other one happened within a year during our Alevels. I bet she must be very strong then, for she scored 4 As and A1 for GP for Alevels. She was beside me that day, when results were released. Immediately, she cried upon knowing her results, in her heart, she knew that her dad was always supporting her and watching over her. And for that, I felt so ashamed of my results.
Im afraid of physics of sports more than thermodynamics. MCQs are killers. But.。顺其自然 吧！
Oh yah, I finally saw dada with his retainer, my wish fulfilled!!! so cute!
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