thermodynamics

It is an hour more before my thermodynamics paper start. Thermodynamics is not the word, it should be physical chemistry, because there are other components like chemical equilibrium other than thermodynamics. I'm feeling very stressed up now, yet, i don't feel like recapping anything. Its either you know or don;t. For all my worst papers, i would at least get a B- and not a C. Please don't give me my first C, I won't be able to take it. Tomorrow is yet another stupid paper. Why the hell did I take physics of sports, when my physics really sucks since secondary school. I didn't even take A level physics. I sought of regretted not SU-ing. Im competing with a whole lot of engineering people! Its peanuts to them. How? Will this semester be my lowest point in life?

I don;t know why, I suddenly thought about my birthday party in June, and i kinda don't look forward to it. Part of me hates the planning part, there's alot to do than it is, part of me wants to make it the best. Ive never had birthday parties. Perhaps a mini one when i was 13 year-old. That was at home and only neighbours and my close relatives were invited. Everybody wants to look their best on their 21st isnt it. Everything seems so boring now.

HAI...can 214 please be doable........I know its like peanuts to many people, but not me. But the last paper is not a relaxing one. I still remembered we had steamboat prior to my last paper last semester. And i was not anxious at all. Because theres really nothing much to study. I got a B+ How cool right, and papers like organic where i put in all my blood, i got a B-. I don;t want to stop writing, once i sstop, it means 214 paper is starting. Should i walk, or take bus. I will walk, afraid to take shuttle bus on my own. Because of self concsious, just like i hate to eat alone too. OMG OMG!! Ims o stressed stressed! PLease..give me luck! 12.10pm now..SHould get prepared....