looking forward, looking backward

So much things have passed in just a blink of eye, my long awaited CNY is over. I missed the wkends prior to CNY eve so much, because i can go shopping with kor and fang using a car!

Missed the cny visit to dada's house, miss the midnite movie, the visit to loyang tua pek kong.....

This yr is the secong time that i am not at home for the bai tian kong during chu jiu..wanted so much to be back at home, its something that i always look forward to since young, i don't know why, perhaps, its because all of us are together, or perhaps, its just fun to stay up late to fold the incense paper, to see the burning of sugarcane..i just like the feeling.

I haven really had time to sleep well, even during the cny period, its worse. I long for a good sleep so much, a sleep when i know that i don;t have to do anything the next day, when i don;t have to care about whether my alarm clock is on or not.

I suddenly felt bored while studying, and i just took my hp out. No, this time i wasnt looking back at all my messages, or rather, i was listening to all my recorded songs in my hp, songs which i sang myself and recorded them along the way. I missed one particular song so much, wu jia hui song. i almost forgoted that this singaporean singer existed. until i hear his song again. This was the may period song, though i cant remember which show was it. then i started to read my diary again, it was a kind of occassional routine i always do...look back. And thought of all the happy..sad things. My last few entries was so..hmmx..i never want it to happen again.

I always believe that songs leave a particular deep impression during your certain periods in life. It has always been for me. Yang cong, was representative of my exam period in april 08. the english songs during my cafe period, wu jiahui song..alot alot.
This is the boring period again, and the phrase starts to come again: everything will turn out fine in the end. Its just about a month to the end, and i can't wait. I need a breather..really..

i fear of going back to hall at night, because once im back, i cant have the chance to touch my work, and my night is gone just like that..

night cycling, will it be as fun this year? i suddenly missed RF so much, the 1st year we had in hall.i love the mahjong session at dada house. Perhaps some things just cannot change, and we can't just accept a new friendship just like that, its like that.

JIAYOU YAN YAN!