so much things

I was really really happy satisfied filled with joy on my 21st celebration, so much thoughts, yet could not write now. I was amazed at how my dada could hold the party so well, get everybody's attention. I WAS SHOCKED AND SURPRISED=> he made my party come alive, perhaps bcoz of so many things that he did, i felt pressurised to do something for him too. But im always the busy one who has to work, therefore, i didnt have much time to do anything.

seriously, i dont want to talk abt this, but i really hate the loan sharks!!!!!!y turn our family's life upside down? i cldnot ctrl myself and spoke to that damn person. I sld not have done that. Im already endangering myself. They may just catch me anytime, and IM DONE FOR. im scared but yet i really want the police to help us to get him caught. That is y i cld not sit own and think what to do for dada. My house will be burnt in this one week, i firmly believe so, now is the time to sit down and think in a sensible way, how to protect ourselves yet deter them and capture them. if only i was in the police force. I always wanted to be part of them, but because of height reasons, i stopped dreaaming since secondary. let me and my family be safe and sound, thats all i want, for now. If anything happens to any of my family members, i won't leave them alone. but if anything happens to me, im afraid i will kind of hate my dad.