I read dada's post, and so conicidentally, he was talking about this topic. I witnessed a car on fire at my house downstairs on friday! It was such a funny incident, no, i'm not throwing salt on that car owner's wound. The story goes like this....
Choon Fang and i were at home preparing our lunch. Due to the fact that our gas supply went out, we used our ricecooker to cook maggie mee instead. While the water was boiling, we smelled a very weird burning smell, those of a metal burning. Initially, we thought that it was the rice cooker, and to prevent any explosion, we switched off the plug. But it was not, and the next moment, i saw that our house outside was very smoky. Being the typical Singaporean, i decided to be Kaypo and go out and take alook. And there it was, a car in the middle of the road burning away. I asked fang to come out and see, and we acted so mountain tortoise, because you din't see this everyday. gradually neighbours came out and joined us. Haha! i even took a video of it and some pictures. Mummy then came back for lunch and that ended our "fun".
But seriously, i saw alot of helpful Singaporeans, (maybe they are not) calling for the fire engine. Alot were taking photos too, they must be trying to send to stomp! me? I just looked at the whole show. I fear calling the numbers sometimes, for fear i don't know what to say!
Saturday, September 27, 2008
4month!
happy 4 month anniversary to us! This will be the first month that we are not spending it together, because dada is on exchange. But last month, he didnt spend it with me too, on the actual day, as he went out with his friends. At that time, i was abit sad, but because he was going to Canada soon, that feeling is even more overpowering than him not spending with me, and i ended up feeling so emo that day. I opened up dada's present, a "rose"! He gave me permission to open it early..i wonder when the next surprise will be..
Again, recess week is over already, thats so fast. I had a lot alot of dreams everyday. The last last night, i dreamt of my room in hall. It was such a ghostly dream because a female ghost was haunting the room. Everything in the room was left by her, and if we touched them, we will get haunt by her, so scary! Dada was in the dream too. whenever i have dreams, the location is always not what it should be, and all kinds of people who don't know each other will come together. For this one whole week, i did not depend on my alarm clock to wake up, i juse woke up at around nine plus everyday, usually awaken by my dreams.....
I tend to think alot more negatively these few days. Maybe because of the shows i watched, the news i read. Recently, i read about the death of a lady who actually lost the opportunity to make it big in the singing scene because the comoany chose stefanie Sun in the end. At that time when she discovered she had cancer, it was already last stage. I concluded that most cancer do not hae alot of symtoms, and i'm afraid i will be one of them. You know, i'm not one who gets sick easily, but sometimes when i have headache, i would think like, do i have brain tumour or whatsoever. Hai..i should be more optimistic..But ultimately it is not the dead one who suffer, its the people around them, they will be the most devastated...
Again, recess week is over already, thats so fast. I had a lot alot of dreams everyday. The last last night, i dreamt of my room in hall. It was such a ghostly dream because a female ghost was haunting the room. Everything in the room was left by her, and if we touched them, we will get haunt by her, so scary! Dada was in the dream too. whenever i have dreams, the location is always not what it should be, and all kinds of people who don't know each other will come together. For this one whole week, i did not depend on my alarm clock to wake up, i juse woke up at around nine plus everyday, usually awaken by my dreams.....
I tend to think alot more negatively these few days. Maybe because of the shows i watched, the news i read. Recently, i read about the death of a lady who actually lost the opportunity to make it big in the singing scene because the comoany chose stefanie Sun in the end. At that time when she discovered she had cancer, it was already last stage. I concluded that most cancer do not hae alot of symtoms, and i'm afraid i will be one of them. You know, i'm not one who gets sick easily, but sometimes when i have headache, i would think like, do i have brain tumour or whatsoever. Hai..i should be more optimistic..But ultimately it is not the dead one who suffer, its the people around them, they will be the most devastated...
Sunday, September 21, 2008
R...
Last friday, i received yet another surprise from shenqibaohe! but i have to wait a week before i could open. I don't think anybody knows about my blog, even dada, though i dropped hint to him, but i don't think he caught my hint. I think i knew what the gift was.
I went to AMK hub with mummy on saturday to mail a gift to dada. Don'tthink will reach them in time on 28 sep..its alright. But 20 sep..was kallang leisure park official opening. If dada were in Singapore, i would have gone there with him, its been some time since we went there, i wanted to immerse in that atmosphere again.
Yesterday night, kor and I had a long talk, about him n cindy, me n dada. I knew he had some problems. we talked about the difficulty of a relationship, his past, everybody's past. I didn't know guys have a sense of insecurity too. He said that somehow things changed abit after he had gone to his exchange earlier this year, but its becase he thought too much,he assured me that WE WON"T. I'm confident too. Although sometimes there are thoughts here and there.
There are times when i really really miss him alot, for to skype just once per week, it's not alot. But i can't be selfish and take up his time. Actually wanted to chat with him during this weekend, but weekends he will be out.
This is something that is meaningful : "in love, one must relax one's clutches, in order for your lover to stick closer to you. When you ask less, he or she will open up and tell you even more."
I went to AMK hub with mummy on saturday to mail a gift to dada. Don'tthink will reach them in time on 28 sep..its alright. But 20 sep..was kallang leisure park official opening. If dada were in Singapore, i would have gone there with him, its been some time since we went there, i wanted to immerse in that atmosphere again.
Yesterday night, kor and I had a long talk, about him n cindy, me n dada. I knew he had some problems. we talked about the difficulty of a relationship, his past, everybody's past. I didn't know guys have a sense of insecurity too. He said that somehow things changed abit after he had gone to his exchange earlier this year, but its becase he thought too much,he assured me that WE WON"T. I'm confident too. Although sometimes there are thoughts here and there.
There are times when i really really miss him alot, for to skype just once per week, it's not alot. But i can't be selfish and take up his time. Actually wanted to chat with him during this weekend, but weekends he will be out.
This is something that is meaningful : "in love, one must relax one's clutches, in order for your lover to stick closer to you. When you ask less, he or she will open up and tell you even more."
dreams..weird dreams
recess week is finally here, but its a week to catch up my school work and Hexis. no chance to out to play, but if dada were here, i know i would have gone out, maybe to study. No pressure of going back to hall after sunday passed..a feeling, good feeling you won't know.
had auditions for hexis last week, turnout was okie only. Lets wish for the better, for things will always turn out better at the end. spent the weekend doing hexis proposals and sending out and studied 2 chapters of polymer chemistry, more to study today! Ive shut myself totally from all the hall games ans trainings, i have to do that, no choice...
the weekend was "eventful"..as in eventful in my dreams, i did not have pleasant dreams to start my week with. First, it was a shipwrecked dream, all of us dropped into the sea, and i was one of them struggling to get saved. But before i could get saved, we saw a shark. All i could think of at that time was to swim all i can, while closing my eyes, i thought i may die anytime. I finally got saved, but my friend died. But the thing is, she died knowing that she died, because she was there with me all along, it was her spirit. She called her boyfriend to say sorry to him because she could not save herself, i cried and cried, because i knew they had plans to marry, it was a pity.....i woke up crying...
The second dream was that my tooth fell out, pretty scary too..because i have my braces on now, and i cant afford any of my tooth to meet with an accident and fall off..
had auditions for hexis last week, turnout was okie only. Lets wish for the better, for things will always turn out better at the end. spent the weekend doing hexis proposals and sending out and studied 2 chapters of polymer chemistry, more to study today! Ive shut myself totally from all the hall games ans trainings, i have to do that, no choice...
the weekend was "eventful"..as in eventful in my dreams, i did not have pleasant dreams to start my week with. First, it was a shipwrecked dream, all of us dropped into the sea, and i was one of them struggling to get saved. But before i could get saved, we saw a shark. All i could think of at that time was to swim all i can, while closing my eyes, i thought i may die anytime. I finally got saved, but my friend died. But the thing is, she died knowing that she died, because she was there with me all along, it was her spirit. She called her boyfriend to say sorry to him because she could not save herself, i cried and cried, because i knew they had plans to marry, it was a pity.....i woke up crying...
The second dream was that my tooth fell out, pretty scary too..because i have my braces on now, and i cant afford any of my tooth to meet with an accident and fall off..
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
giving up..........
I always thought that there is a solution to everything. I always thought that effort will bring you rewards. Not to me now, anymore. I just feel like putting down everything and giving up. Just when i thought that I'm pretty settled down on some issues, more problems came along. It's not as though i didn't make the effort to sit down and think before i made any decision.
I had a great first half of the year, but second half of 2008, I find it so hard to pass each day. Everyday, it is a mental torture to me. Perhaps, some people say things too straightforward, and i'm not one who can take it that easily. i need someone to talk to, i find it so hard to even breathe properly now.
Kickfit was the only time when i sweat it out and don't think of the stressful things. I always wanted myself to be strong and not to cry so easily, but, to no avail. Im weak, Im very weak. I cant pull myself up now, at least at this moment. I cant even remember how many times i cried since i took up the position. I feel so sorry for myself, because i'm so useless. Give me a miracle.
I had a great first half of the year, but second half of 2008, I find it so hard to pass each day. Everyday, it is a mental torture to me. Perhaps, some people say things too straightforward, and i'm not one who can take it that easily. i need someone to talk to, i find it so hard to even breathe properly now.
Kickfit was the only time when i sweat it out and don't think of the stressful things. I always wanted myself to be strong and not to cry so easily, but, to no avail. Im weak, Im very weak. I cant pull myself up now, at least at this moment. I cant even remember how many times i cried since i took up the position. I feel so sorry for myself, because i'm so useless. Give me a miracle.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Not motivated
I can't find any motivation in myself, especially after my organic chemistry test today. I totally flopped. If i could get any single marks for it, it must be pity marks from the lecturer. I studied, but maybe i didnt put in my utmost effort for it. Recess week is next week, by right, i should feel a great sense of relief that at least the 2 tests are over for the time being, at least, that was what i felt for the past two sems when recess week is nearing. But not this time, because of hexis.
The meeting last night taught me, don't take up a head position if you don't know any big shots seniors or relatives, because you totally lose out in having contacts for canvassing. That is my case, and i'm really worried that i cannot canvass out enough money in the end, and hexis will for the first time in history, collapse.
2 lab reports due this week. The only thing that i can look forward now, is just going home. At the very least, seeing my mum and family made me felt better. I'm wondering if I'm suffering from slight depression. But i definitely don't have those negative thoughts. I'm just looking forward to next year, and everytime I can see dada online. No matter what, i still have 3 stars protecting me each day. I'm still trying to find my hidden smile..i want to be me,,,,again.
The meeting last night taught me, don't take up a head position if you don't know any big shots seniors or relatives, because you totally lose out in having contacts for canvassing. That is my case, and i'm really worried that i cannot canvass out enough money in the end, and hexis will for the first time in history, collapse.
2 lab reports due this week. The only thing that i can look forward now, is just going home. At the very least, seeing my mum and family made me felt better. I'm wondering if I'm suffering from slight depression. But i definitely don't have those negative thoughts. I'm just looking forward to next year, and everytime I can see dada online. No matter what, i still have 3 stars protecting me each day. I'm still trying to find my hidden smile..i want to be me,,,,again.
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