I can't find any motivation in myself, especially after my organic chemistry test today. I totally flopped. If i could get any single marks for it, it must be pity marks from the lecturer. I studied, but maybe i didnt put in my utmost effort for it. Recess week is next week, by right, i should feel a great sense of relief that at least the 2 tests are over for the time being, at least, that was what i felt for the past two sems when recess week is nearing. But not this time, because of hexis.
The meeting last night taught me, don't take up a head position if you don't know any big shots seniors or relatives, because you totally lose out in having contacts for canvassing. That is my case, and i'm really worried that i cannot canvass out enough money in the end, and hexis will for the first time in history, collapse.
2 lab reports due this week. The only thing that i can look forward now, is just going home. At the very least, seeing my mum and family made me felt better. I'm wondering if I'm suffering from slight depression. But i definitely don't have those negative thoughts. I'm just looking forward to next year, and everytime I can see dada online. No matter what, i still have 3 stars protecting me each day. I'm still trying to find my hidden smile..i want to be me,,,,again.
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