4month!

happy 4 month anniversary to us! This will be the first month that we are not spending it together, because dada is on exchange. But last month, he didnt spend it with me too, on the actual day, as he went out with his friends. At that time, i was abit sad, but because he was going to Canada soon, that feeling is even more overpowering than him not spending with me, and i ended up feeling so emo that day. I opened up dada's present, a "rose"! He gave me permission to open it early..i wonder when the next surprise will be..

Again, recess week is over already, thats so fast. I had a lot alot of dreams everyday. The last last night, i dreamt of my room in hall. It was such a ghostly dream because a female ghost was haunting the room. Everything in the room was left by her, and if we touched them, we will get haunt by her, so scary! Dada was in the dream too. whenever i have dreams, the location is always not what it should be, and all kinds of people who don't know each other will come together. For this one whole week, i did not depend on my alarm clock to wake up, i juse woke up at around nine plus everyday, usually awaken by my dreams.....

I tend to think alot more negatively these few days. Maybe because of the shows i watched, the news i read. Recently, i read about the death of a lady who actually lost the opportunity to make it big in the singing scene because the comoany chose stefanie Sun in the end. At that time when she discovered she had cancer, it was already last stage. I concluded that most cancer do not hae alot of symtoms, and i'm afraid i will be one of them. You know, i'm not one who gets sick easily, but sometimes when i have headache, i would think like, do i have brain tumour or whatsoever. Hai..i should be more optimistic..But ultimately it is not the dead one who suffer, its the people around them, they will be the most devastated...