我站的很稳!

I thought such things only happen in shows, but shows are in fact a mimick of real life things. 人生如戏，戏如人生...how true.

Girls are the most sensitive, we know what is going on always. I never believe in platonic relationships, they can never happen. This guy, JY.(same initials coincidentally) I knew him from my lab, and i never know he existed in CBC. He is a very intelligent guy, with a lot of deep thinking. All the tests so far, he scored above 95. For me, I was the opposite, working hard, but not very intelligent. He never failed to help me in my studies, although sometimes i can't catch it. He talked sense into me when I was feeling down, and i never denyed that i learnt alot.

He knew I have dada, he knew it. That was why i thought it is okie to study with him alone, and he can never harbour any thoughts. But i was wrong, as he was getting closer to me, until yesterday, he told me that i knew all along that he liked me. I was kind of shock. Why like a girl who is already attached? I told him, it is impossible. At that point, I suddenly felt that it was unfair to dada, and i should not be studying with him alone. You can say, that I'm making use of him in my studies, but I'm not. For he is just a normal friend.

But yesterday, more truth unfold. He already has a girlfriend. In CBC too. I can't believe thatI am actually the root of the cause of them quarelling. I felt as if i was the bad girl, but in fact i am so innocently included in their picture. He told me about his broken family and everything, and that he could give up a good friend for love. Why? This is not sensical at all!! I don't make sense out of it, i pity his girlfriend. It is so unfair to her. If every guy were like him, wouldnt all the girls feel so insecure? Girls always feel insecure. I gradually told him more things too, and we talked til 3am.

I told my mum, she was worried. But i confidently and firmly told her, please believe in me, I have only dada, and she will only have dada as her son in law! That was why i could not sleep as i wanted to tell dada all the things that happened. Dada, i know you are reading this now. I just want to tell you, these are all the obstacles that we faced, but we managed to jump over them so easily, it was simply because of two things, love and trust. It is because you trusted and love me, that was why what happened yesterday was not a trigger to spoil our relationship. Nobody can ever replace you, for i really love you.